Currently Listening Everything in Transit By Jack's Mannequin -Miss Delaney- see related

"Those for whom 'anything goes' have yet to learn that ultimately, for them, nothing goes...For them, the speech of an illiterate is preferable to that of an educated, cultured person. Subtlety and suppleness, distinctions and variety, eloquence and ease, clarity of phrasing and perspicuity of sentence, all these are suspect, for they imply superiority of mind and spirit. That ambiguity and tedium and a drab parochialism inevitably result from such an attitude seems to have eluded the little-minded, for they have become stultified by envy. No wonder mediocrity flourishes in literature and, indeed, at all levels of writing, for its only vehicle, language, has been slowed down by the slow-minded and the sluggish-hearted, by the dull and the indifferent. Anyone who believes in civilization must find it difficult to approve, and impossible to abet, one of the surest means of destroying it. To degrade language is finally to degrade civilization." - Eric Partridge

I know there is a reason I am majoring in English and now that I am here I know that there is no other path for me. This is what I am meant to do with my life - prevent the degradation of civilization.

 Cool. I like how everyone and their dog has quit xanga. Including myself. I really think I've broken myself of it; I don't really care about it anymore.

That's cool, I guess.

Life at OC is much more fun and interesting than life on xanga.

So peace out, man. Have a good life.

Currently Listening MMHMM By Relient K -Who I Am Hates Who I've Been- see related

I watched the proverbial sunrise coming up over the Pacific
You might think I'm losing my mind, but I will shy away from the specifics
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line - well, I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well, I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been

I talk to absolutely no one
couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beat of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line - well, I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well, I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause

who I am hates who I've been

This song just really has become one of my favorites and I really feel like I've gone through so much personal change in the past few years. I've become some people I really regret being, that I only became because I wanted to look cool or impress someone. This summer was kind of a challenge to be myself around so many people that were so different from me in different ways, ways I had never had to work with before. I enjoyed it so much, but at times I found myself being someone that I wasn't. Since coming to OC and meeting so many new people, I feel like I'm really, finally, truly able to be myself. There are very few people here that I knew in high school; there are no preconceived notions about who I am. I'm free to be friendly to whoever I want, to randomly meet people, to be spontaneous. This past week and a few days has been more than I ever could have hoped for. I've just felt so much more free than I ever have and I love it. I love being at OC.

who I am may hate who I've been, but who I am now is someone I love.

Sometimes the hardest things and the right thing are the same

Happy happy joy joy

I just heard "Happy Happy Joy Joy" as the jingle for a Sara Lee commercial. How bizarre. Oh, the days of Ren and Stimpy.

Why? Why did we like Ren and Stimpy? Seriously.

Why?